It’s been 3 months since I started my new job and a change has washed over me.
On the positive side, I’m starting to get into my groove at work. While I still feel new (i.e., trying to get the hang of certain technologies, processes and people), I don’t feel as in-over-my-head as I had at the outset.
On the negative side, I have the time to sit back and take a long hard look at myself, and I’m not happy with what I see. While I refuse to step on the scale (out of fear, not for some “philosophical” reason), I know I’ve gained a bit (well, more than a bit) of weight. I’m also not sleeping enough so I ALWAYS look tired. And, to top it off, I’m doing that dang Retin-A program so my skin looks scaly. As I said to my husband today, “I feel downright ugly.”
Why have I gained so much weight so quickly? Well, not only do I have amazing free meals as a perk, but our mini kitchens in the office are always stocked with TONS of goodies. And boy do I partake!
But there’s something else going on here too. Feeling overwhelmed and a bit out of control at work, distracts me from caring too much about how and what I eat. I’m more concerned with my work than my body.
Last year I wrote a post all about the notion that our bodies are a reflection of our emotional health. That is, when we feel like shit our bodies tend to look it too. I’m living that now!
But, the good news is that at the 3 month mark, this realization of my body’s changes has made me take control again. I’m trying my best not to eat the snacks (or at least fewer of them 🙂 ) and trying to stay away from the types of foods I like to eat when I’m stressed.
It’s going to take a lot of willpower to keep this up but I feel good that I have regained a sense of control in both my professional and beauty lives.
So Karen, you have a partner in crime now!
Oh, yeah, and it helps to know that I’ll be in Cannes mid-June to motivate me further 😉